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8:53 PM
it's kind of wrong that i'm sad of another person being happy, i love them too and i'm glad to see they're okay. it's just at the same time it makes me feel insignificant. at the same time we did talk and stuff, yet that's all i did but i could've put more effort into it, i was being a friend, a personal therapist. then again, that is the deadly price of being faceless - i hate myself for doing so cause it isn't memories at all - it's advice you can, sure, keep in mind - but is it advice that can make you closer to that person? even though you are the sweetest you could be to them, you will not be on their mind. sometimes i'm just like "damn, was i trying too hard?" cause then again it'd make them uncomfortable, it'd be cringe. but then again i remember, they don't wanna talk to me ever again. the new person they are with is far more better than i can ever be. only because of the insecurities that consumed me. im still a stranger, i even promised but it was too late, now i'm stained to a group of people that they consider unhealthy. why the hell should i feel broken for someone who didn't have a connection? i don't know, the feeling is depressing.