8:53 PMI'm starting to hate my life bro. I used to like my life even though I just live in a shitty environment after all. I can't even show my face. I rarely talk in online spaces. There's like little things I want but I can't get it, and the worst of them all I have bad luck. There would be a good opportunity I come across yet there would always be something bad to come crashing down and destroy it all. No one tries to understand, I always get led on in relationships cause one day we'd be good, and the next day she says she's not ready. In that time I already feel like I can love myself and I enter an even more happier point in my life. Every time I try to get in a conversation I'd always make an enemy for absolutely no reason. Every friend I decide to even consider befriending has to be some toxic person. I don't get any type of support, not even financial support, I'm not able to chase my dreams cause I'm in an environment where I can't do that anyway. Everything is out of reach, and I'm just trapped in something I can't escape. Every possible thing becomes impossible. No one can save me or at-least try to make me happy, it all get snatched away. FML. Anything doesn't matter to me. If anything, the next person that does try to offer some sort of support wether that'd be financial, emotional, or even relationship worthy, is simply doing it out of sympathy. Nothing is true. I don't believe anyone no more. I'll just keep going through the same cycle cause once I've been hurt, I don't wanna be hurt again. That's unrealistic so stop trying cause that'll hurt me even more cause I know it's not true.